Starting to detest mirrors nowadays ..... they remind me of my baldness... haha. Shaving bald was a more frightening thing now that i have actually done it. Well thinking back i was still laughing when that guy mercilessly shave out all my hair. Now that everything is gone.... i wonder how long it will take to grow them ba... Hopefully they will grow faster if i water them or massage them.

Cant get used to the cooling breeze i feel now, cant get used to the speed i wash my hair now and cant get used to the stranger i see in the mirror and in my shadows. Guess it is the self confidence ba, it has been gone together with the hair...

Hair is important, cherish it while it is still there. Haha anyway, for now, my cap and beanie is my very best frens le.

By the way, on a special note of mention, my sweet lil sis actually bought my a cap the day before i went to shave bald. It is a nice looking puma cap, but really, it helped me forget my baldness by a little. Thanks Sis. Next time IF you cut bald... i will buy one nice cap for u too =D

1:32 AM

Had a VERY tiring days doing SGB a few days ago....

Everything started on friday. The day started off with me meeting up with alex for our regluar gym sessions. As usual, after the gym session, we went for lunch and then continued our mad training sessions and do our swimming. My actual plan was to go swimming and then go home for a short rest before heading off to school again. But life with alex probably means that plans don't actually work out the way it is suppose to be. After the swimming session, he convinced me to meet up with the rest of the maroon gang as we head over to a street soccer for a "short" game of soccer.

The game happened to be everything but short as i got stuck there before i realised that i still have to go school. So i hurried home to change and immediately went to school straight. The meeting was already halfway when i reached and i was already too tired to do anything. Well sumhow the night seems to drag on and finally went on to sleep at about 4 am.

Day 2

Woke up at 6.30, then went to KAP mac with bernice and jennifer to meet wen wei for breakfast. Still feeling tired, the morning started to chaotic after we went back to NP before the briefing starts, i keep shuttling between the Nyp and Sp people to brief some of them or answer some of their question. Well i secretly wished that i could just stay and catch up with diana sharon and fenella, been awhile since we last saw each other. Aniway after everyone is well and briefed bout what is goin on. We moved off to do our external collection as i was in the bus with the SP people. Never expected the bus driver to not know his way as we found ourself stranded somewhere in singapore. Everything worked out for the better as a girl came out to guide us back to bukit panjang.

Left the Sp ppl after we reached to join my group. My group leader is fang yi and morgan, never talked to them much prior to this, but got to noe them better after this. Anyway, the tiring day continued as i moved my aching muscle through the night. The night or sorting was rough though being tired and all. Aniway managed to fall asleep with no problems in the end.

Day 3

Finally the day of delivery, always the nicest of the 3 days, the result of all the hardwork and effort. This time round was abit special. My sis, Wei xia and me was in the green sector, so we were pretty much on our own as we travel with five other cars to do delivery to own sector. The cars we travelled with was amazing, did show me the perks of being a Rich adult, haha. Wish to own a car like they have. Aniway back to the main topic. Saw the same scenes which is i witness last year, the loneliness of some of them, the wasted conditions they lived in and some, i see, had already lost the will to live. With our limited abilities, there are only this much we can do, but somehow, i really want to go beyond and help them abit more.

After the delivery was done, we went on to the headquarter of volkswagen to have our reception. Everyone were pretty much well-stretched by now. And so my sis and mi left to the sweetness of our beds at home...

12:25 PM

As much as i have many regrets in life, probably the worst which always haunt me would be the fact that i liked this girl who i met on the very first day of my poly student life. She is not the prettiest of the bunch neither the brightest ( Well but still she is the second prettiest and the second top scorer in class HAHA), but actually what really caught my attention was how she can smile so brightly and in a very gentle manner, and the way she can be so crappy but still the quiet type at the same time.

I liked her the first time i seen her, but it got worse as i become more and more siao as time goes. I think i suffer from some kind of boy school disease, which render me speechless everytime she was around. I think everyday the only thing i can muster out would be " Good Morning " and " Bye Bye". All i did was just admire her from afar.

Being my useless and " Dun even dare to look at her properly" self, i went on to admire for bout one semester before I started to make my move..... Talk to her on msn.... hahahahah..... it was really a major step for me. Everything went quite well, as we became closer as frens but just frens. Somehow i never dared to do anything more, never asked her out, never told her of my feelings.

Everything came to an end when i got together with my Ex. I stopped thinking bout her for about a good 8 months before she came back to haunt me again. Well this story never really have a ending at all, just about a guy who lack the guts and courage to do anything. Enough about how lame i was. This chapter may still continue though, i just met her again today at school during SGB collection, it was a stroke of luck, she is now in SMU coming back to revise and me, just helping out in SGB walking around the canteen. She looks better nowadays, but still too early to tell if i still feel anything, probably not though ..... All these feeligns shuld just belong to the past.

1:02 AM

Today was my last day working in Sentosa, like every parting it felt sour in the heart. Six months of working at this place had given me plenty of memories and many frens are made there. However as much as i love working in Sentosa, some things dun last forever. The day started off normally, until i came to work.

Responses like " Wah so fast ur last day le, will miss u" " Remember to stay in contact " " Don't forget us " keeps popping out, all these which i have no reply to, hard to actually assure them that i will still keep in contact, nothing has changed, when in actual fact for all the parting i had so far in my life, most of them resulted in becoming strangers at the end. As much as i want to always be with them, stay in contact, i know that as times go, feelings dilute and probably we wun even have common topics to talk about anymore.

Anyway, even through all these, i tried to get on with my last day as per normal. Carmen was nice to actually walk me up to imbiah bunkers though, probably to abstract some informations from me, but it is a bit awkward that everyone get the wrong idea that i am interested in her or we have something on.

No offense to carmen, as much as she is pretty and such, maybe she is abit too ah lian and she smokes, and not those type i like.... haha . Nonetheless i pretty much know who is the actual one she likes . Well this is the least to my problems.

It is quite sad to actually make the parting speech and all, abit lost for words. Probably abit rude too for not saying bye to those who werent working on that day. I have to say thanks to those at the snacks bar for giving me bout 3 bags worth of popcorns. Thanks for the parting gift.... I wun forgot SOS and the fun i had.... this much is what i can promise.

TO NOTE : Must remember to go back to meet saihah... and watch SOS one last time.

2:34 AM

It is that time of the year AGAIN ! time to be a little thick skin and start going around to ask for donations. Decided to go down to NP to help out for the internal collection, quite some time never actually seen primers people. Well this is the third year i had done SGB, from helping out in internal program sub-com, to heading the publicity department and finally now, a old guy who is just there to see see look look AND to help out of course.....

Went down for the opening ceremony, well it may not be grand, but truthfully it is more important to collect more for the needy, rather than make an elaborate opening. Collection itself werent much of a problem, some of the freshies are very hardworking reminding me of the wan yan wei ting and pei jun trio who were also as hardworking the year before .....

As much as problems seems to be brewing between the new advisor and the exco, it is also important not to strain any relationships as it is. Well this trouble aside, it was a good start for many to come, will probably be going to help out for the following days to come.

2:53 AM