Man.. this really sucks, my frens are all finally getting ready to go army or is in army already, while i am still stuck here working part-time and doin nothing with my life. Well cant realli do anything bout it though, so just enjoy my freedom while i still have it.

A few days ago just had a farewell party for XiuXing, well not sure why we had a farewell party even though we will still most probably meet up every weekend when he is out but still, you should party for whatever reason u have isn't it. Just a few good frens chilling out and doing some lame stuffs is a pretty good way to spend our Saturday. Haha.

Fast forward to a few days later, we the same few bunch was off to send Xx to Tekong. It is pretty amazing that we carried over our maroon spirit to always be late even to this event where Xx was late for the enlistment by 30 mins or 1 hr ( Cant remember which one ). I must say NSF did a pretty good job making parents who came to sent their sons off to serve the nation feel good, after all the deco of the camp and facilities put Ngee Ann poly to shame, and the lunch they served was pretty good. Even the school commandant looks so friendly that i wun hesitate to ask him to scratch my back, nonetheless it was a sad parting, at least for charlotte and Xx when everything is over ( Come on... i am not so gay as to miss him even if he is my best pal ).

Seeing their parting did make me felt a tingle of jealousness, i mean, if i were to leave for army, will i have a gf to send me off? Some girl to miss me? Haha well it is selfish to think so, but nonetheless, isn't that what all guy will hope for? After all the talks for not wanting a girlfriend when i go army so as to prevent a conflict and longing, do i really mean it? i am not too sure about it ..................... but whats the use of thinking so much when i haven met a girl which i like. Haha.. Well wait till that actually happen before i worry ba....

Ok Xx i admit, i miss u a little bit already, i mean , who should i find to go shop for my boxers.... if only u are around ... hahahahaha

12:55 AM

Ok, here comes, my first real post....

VSA ( Very Special Arts ) is a volunteer service which help mentally challenged people through the use of arts. I join this group bout 4 months back with my pals xx and alex. At the first thought, i always thought of volunteer service group to be quite big with many people in it, but when i went for the first lesson, it had proven me wrong. It is just managed but four adults who have the passion to help others and the "kids" aren't exactly all children, some of them are near adult stage like me. Seeing their parents bring them to the class and how worried some of them are peeping through the small little window during the lesson made me thought bout alot of stuffs like the constant struggles of the parents of these kids, having to give their fullest attention to them, worrying bout their future, etc. If i were in their shoe, i will be pretty lost.

Some of the kids are pretty much normal with a shorter attention span or just a young adult with a small children's intellect. The normal serious case kids are those who cant talk or talk in gibberish or simply dun understand anything. Our job there was basically to guide them and be their friend. 4 months of doing this have made me close with some of the kids, many of them had learnt how to say my name ( my first lesson to them is to made them learn how to say my name haha ), aniway i always thought that what i have been doing is quite meaningful teaching them stuffs and all, but as 4 months have already passed, other than my name, they never seem to have made any improvements. All my dreams of helping them to become independent or someone capable to take care of himself or herself seems distant and impossible, maybe i hoped too much at the beginning, maybe it isn't possible at all, or maybe there is something wrong with us. Well, i guess we are pretty much powerless to help them sometimes as god have made everyone to be different but there will be a purpose for them nonetheless.

On the bright side, there are some things which made me think i didn't waste my time it will be the frenship forged between the volunteers and the kids. Like how they will call our name when we come in for the lesson, or how they dun wan to start the lesson until we come, or making a drawing of some unknown stuffs for us. Well, so i think lets just enjoy and have fun for this moment, as for the future, it can wait....

1:16 AM

Hello, this is the first post.... but i cant realli think of the content as well as the title, so this is pretty much all i can write to fill up the first post. i am not too sure if the first post is suppose to be very significant or wat, but well just felt like it is abit weird to start writing everything in the first isn't it. So i guess crapping in my first post seems to be a more logical choice. i just realised i wasted ten minutes of my life do this meaningless stuff of thinking wat to write for my first post and i actually type out PURE crap in it .... oh man .... sorry for wasting ur time reading this, haha

12:01 AM