Been long...
Been long since i last blogged... few months in fact.. many stuffs changed,many things happened to me; mostly ns stuffs. I managed to snugged the company best award, abit of a surprise to everyone and also to me. No offense to those who really want it, but personally i know through my bmt, i had been actually quite slack, just doing things i had and want to, well, somehow luck smiled on me and i excelled in most of my test, which got me the award. Frankly i didnt felt good when i get it. True, i felt proud to get it in front of my parents, but.... i know i never really work hard for it. Many others deserved this award, not me. It sucks to be in the spotlight too... somehow everyone expect the company best to be superman, it sucks, i really wanted to be normal and chill out in the bulk with my section mates. Any it is over now.
Now i got into OCS, a place where the chosen ones from bmt will come and learn to become an officer. It is certainly tough there. At the beginning i felt really depressed and stuffs. Every morning i will wake up and look forward for my lights out to sleep. Regimentation isnt exactly my best friend, but still i grit my teeth and went on. It is great to have Teng hui, my bmt good mate, with me here. At least i know i am not alone.
Army really just swallow my these few months away. Somehow my everyday seems to be training and training. My social life had remained stagnant all the way. Haha, the outside world is like changing everyday and i still remain the same inside the camp.
i am having a 3 days break now. These few days had been great. i get to stay home watch tv , do the normal things all civilian does and just chill out. Went out to get a few shirts. Life is great. I even went back to NP. It just brought back memories of how it was when i was still a poly student. Everything seems so great then. The noisy canteens... groups of friends walk around.... people doing projects.... i missed all these. Felt great to be in a youthful and relax environment again.
Funny how things seems to be precious once u lose them. Well, how the past seems more beautiful than it actually was. I am grateful for my poly life though. Taught me alot of stuffs. Made alot of friends, some still around, some forgotten, some unforgettable. Met a girl who i so sure that she is the one, but somehow never got the courage to speak up to and now gone forever, met another who i had but just not the one i was looking for. Had a CCA, which changed my life and taught me lessons which are so invaluable and made me friends.
Well enough of all these reflections and stuff... time to look towards the future now. Next next week will be my 2 weeks long field camp (yup no book-out, it will be the forest for the two weeks, no baths ... Woots... i am so screwed) Endure, Excel and Overcome, OCS !
