new post... finally
Been like .... 6 months since my last post ? well time to start up this log again le.
Been well so far... went on to armour tankee office training wing which was one of my dream since i came into army, really lucky...anyway lets fast forward to the present.
Today was my off day since it is hari raya and been home the whole day other than goin out for a run. Just watched " A walk to remember" for probably the tenth time, it just never fail to make me moved and sad, well after all it is my favourite movie of all time.
Well got me thinking bout romance and love again, the topic which i had ignored for the past year ever since i got into army. How is love judged by ? the intensity or how long it last ? Issit possible to find one which is lasting and both still love each other deeply ? Well i wouldn't know, since thus far all the relationships i had are just naive and probably don't count as a true love, just a intense passion, a fleeting one. Which is why ever since i just stop jump straight in ......
Just knew that my OCS mate broke up with his girlfriend, their relationship was quite long also. The sadness in his face was apparent for the past two months and he was helping other to take weekend duties, probably to stay in camp... away from his sadness. It is really sad to see others breaking up. Break up just hurt the both parties, both the one who initiated it and the other one.
Recently i finally got the courage and motivation to start know this one girl. It had been put on hold for too long already, as months flew by and OCS had been probably the main obstacle. Seriously, this is probably the first time for the past two years i had realli made an effort to know another girl, probably come as a surprise for most people. Well, definitely for the past one week plus, she really got me crazy. Waiting for her sms in camp, feeling down for the WHOLE day just because she never reply, risking getting 3 confinements by bringing my phone and sms-in her around with my officers conducting spotchecks, staying up way past lights out time to reply her, etc. ALL this sounds stupid and crazy and i have no idea why i am doing all this when probably she wun feel the same. Haha think just take things slow ba... no idea what to do next, how she feels, how to ask her out ( provided i have to courage to actually do it ). Haha if only i can read her mind .......
Gotta go ... time to book in
