Whole body is aching now, arghhh. Didnt sleep much cause had to return to camp at 11pm to be luggage party (AKA go airport carry stores back to camp), only book out today at 7 am.
Yesterday was fun, soccer is always fun. Glad to see the primers peeps once in a awhile, feels like i am back to poly, back to school, back to being a carefree teenager. Today i just feel OLD... think about life, my future, worry bout this and that, wonder what i want, think how poor i am now, how much my back ache, how my life feel colourless no matter what i do. Army make me feel older, probably good in that i started to learn how to be slight more responsible in some parts, learn how to worry and be a pessimistic guy, gone are the days where i simply live my life the way i want, do thing how i like, and just think about the present.
"Thinking bout the future is a good thing, but whats the point of always worrying about the future when today is the time u live in. Dun waste ur time worring bout the future, spend ur time thinkin how to make ur today a better and more fruitful day." Just came out with this, shuld try to remind myself.
Well like i said yesterday i am 21 now, the thought of settling down is starting to come to me. Haha settle as in to seriously think bout having a serious relationship, or at least become more mature. Been partyin too much, club is never a good place to meet ur future partner, seeing how loose some girls are. But somehow it became a place to drown my sorrow, and have fun with my friends.
Thinking of goin back to do volunteer work again, but couldnt get my ass off to start again. Maybe after i commission.....
Saw her yesterday, heart skipped a beat, or two, or three... or probably it just stood still when i see her. Hahaha. Two to three weeks back i was still head and heels over her, smsing her and stuffs, but with a few setbacks i stopped. Abit lame lar, but still i am never a guy brave enough to face rejection or at least try out things i feel wun happen. From the fact she never reply, it was demoralising, plus at least she could have at least reply a simply " sorry, no" or what. Xx and i came to a conclusion aniway, in a relationship, it takes both side to like each other, if one side is not interested at first, why bother ? Even she may fall in love with u if u persist, but it is because u persist or she see how much u love her then she love u, it is not a mutual love for each other from start... Maybe it may seem idealistic to want a relationship where both like each other naturally, but still i think it is possible.
Anyway gotta go, finally my movie finish downloading. HAHAHA. Needa watch all i can cause tmr i wan getting confine in camp T_T
