Moodless.....
The whole week just passed by feeling moodless.....
Commissioning soon, everyone seems to be happy except me.... maybe it is the fact that its going to be over or maybe its that i not sure what to do from now ... or maybe both ?
9 months of training in OCS, tough, hellish at times, but undeniably bonds were forged and the things experienced are unforgettable. Most people probably don't even understand half of the things we do, the effort we put in, the stress we had, something which was never experienced in the 20 years of my life......
Spending days in the wild, dirty, uncomfortable, tired, smelly but still having to push on and think, do planning, etc. Everything will probably soon become a distant memory, which was probably what sadden me like how when everything come to an end.
Spacing out alot nowadays, preferring to be alone most of the time, pondering on what to do next. Life seems colourless..... now that i finished what which had motivated me for the past 9 months.......
Seem to lost interest in everything.............
