Cant describe how much i am dreading tmr... returning back to camp, exactly like how a student dread his test day... pretty much sums up my situation.... exactly i feel the moral responsibility to be good (burden of the rank and expectations).

Realized that many things are like take for granted, just like how students expect their teachers to know everything about the subject, doctors are expected to know how to treat a patient in the best manner... etc. Officers are expected to be able to lead, be good at everything and knows his stuffs.....just not the case... we are still human being, falleable and make mistakes. How i wish i was still a student... Hahaha...

Tired of the office, the expectations, the amount of work being push to us to do; part and parcel of an adult. Well, despite all thesze complains i still went for the interview to be a regular. Yep, i decided to sign-on. Not that i love my life here, in fact i don't really like it, but it is the best and fastest route for me to accomplish my dream. I just need to tolerate and work hard for these 3 years....

I will do what i can, to at least work towards my dream....after life would probably be meaningless if u dun have a dream and work towards it.......

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